Happy. for once honestly happy.

I wanted to write about how happy I was. That doesn't happen very often. D took me on a date last night. :) It was immensly wonderful. We went to dinner at a very nice Italian place (even though it was Friday and I couldn't eat meat it was still pretty good). And then we went to see Over Her Dead Body with Eva Longoria. It was a wonderful movie. I mean, it wasn't the BEST I'd ever seen... but i REALLY like her... and I cried. A LOT. After that we went to the frat house and hung out there before going to sleep. It was nice. I got roses. Yellow ones- B. you should see them- they're beautiful! I look at them and I smile. It's been so long since I wanted to dance while I was sober. . . last night I did. Granted it was to B. Spears... but.... still. *blush*

Valentines Day is Thursday. Damn. Another thing I'm not prepared for. *pout* It'll take forever too...cuz the gift is so time consuming (granted i could work on it instead of writing here....but.... no) But I have a couple days? right? lol. I have a test on Tuesday...but then I'll have like all day wednesday to figure it out...Nothing like last minute. Go me.

getting started

I don't know how often I'll update this. I'm going to start by saying that. I'm also not going to use full names of anyone I know. That's not fair to them. I may or may not link a few select friends to the site. I haven't decided yet.

I'll post here any poetry/song lyrics I write as well as my random ramblings. I have explanations for most things that I do . . . but they don't necessarily make sense to other people. So long as they make sense to me. . . I'm okay with it.

Right now I have a lot on my mind. I have a wonderful significant other, D. Who treats me like I've never deserved. (In a good way... not in a bad way... just for clarification.) I love D . . . I just don't know what love means.

Also my friend S broke up with her boyfriend. She is distraught because she thought she had a relationship chance with J. J is one of my best friends. But he is in love with C. Does this sound like a soap opera plot to anyone else? Seriously. I can't deal with this shit.

Speaking of C. That's fucked up in itself. She used to date G. But at the same time she was dating Js. And then G left her...and she continued to date Js but slept with J. And she doesn't understand why people get frustrated with her. The sad part is that she still has boys that are in love with her. Super dumb. But, again, its like its high school all over again. Just with more alcohol and sex and more vicious comments and ploys.

Also until very recently I didn't really know or understand who I am. That's something that I'm working very hard on. I'm going to work on a list of themes that my friend B (who is coincidentally G's new girlfriend). There's 100 of them and I don't know that I'll do all of them, but I'll do at least some (most perhaps). I feel that writing about them may help in my goal of finding myself.

Also. The reason I classify myself as a psycho. For me to know. For everyone else to decide :).