fucking bitches

Danielle

hey

7:38pmSophie

hello

7:38pmDanielle

how are ya

7:39pmSophie

nyeh...you?

7:39pmDanielle

nyeh?

i'm sick. and in pain

7:40pmSophie

sorry

7:40pmDanielle

not your fault

wahts wrong

7:41pmSophie

nothing...just stressed

7:41pmDanielle

i'm sorry.

7:41pmSophie

it's ok...break is almost here

7:41pmDanielle

relax.

i'm not really looking forward to break.

7:42pmSophie

aw...i am!

7:42pmDanielle

I don't want to go home. it wasn't fun over thanksgiving

7:43pmSophie

i had a good thanksgiving...and i am going to CA for Christmas!

7:43pmDanielle

why haven't i seen you all semester?

ooo why?

7:44pmSophie

my mom's family is out there

7:44pmDanielle

that's exciting

and why haven't i seen you

7:45pmSophie

too busy

7:48pmDanielle

really?

you seem to make it out with nates friends an awful lot!

and you talk to meg and laura.

but not me.

7:48pmSophie

i just don't have time, dan

7:49pmDanielle

how do you have time for everyone else? that's all i don't understand soph

time isn't an appropriate reason soph. I'll come over to study. jesus my grades are good this semester. when i'm studying i study.

is it because i pissed your boyfriend off? really

7:51pmSophie

i'm just *sigh* trying to take care of what i need to take care of...i had to cut a few people out so i had time for my stuff...sorry

7:51pmDanielle

so you cut one of your best friends? that's bullshit sophie. i was always there for you.

i went through a lot. and i haven't had anyone there for me.

7:52pmSophie

i'm sorry dani...whenever i was with you there was too much drama...whether i caused it or you did i don't know

7:52pmDanielle

you wouldn't talk to me at tke.

7:52pmSophie

bu things are better now

7:52pmDanielle

you think i caused the drama?

you know that's bullshit sophia

7:53pmSophie

i think that you prolonged the drama

7:53pmDanielle

oh really

who the hell came back every time you needed them

how did that prolong the drama

7:54pmSophie

*dani* i knew you wouldn't understand

i gotta go

i'm sorry

7:54pmDanielle

sophai htats a lie

i'd like to talk to you face to face

you're leaving because i upset you

if you don't want me in your life i can understand that

but i'd like to know actual reasons

Who all did you date in 2008?
just boyfriend

How did you feel when you woke up today?
scared

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
yeah..

What is the shirt you're wearing now?
a navy pier sweatshirt

Did you sing at all today?
days new

Do you believe in love?
yes!

Are you too forgiving?
somtimes

Did you mean it when you said "I love you" last?
yes of course

Can you handle the truth?
probably not lol

Can you determine the difference between a ball and a strike?
ummm....sometimes?

Who was your last text message from?
sonja

What did it say?
sorry

Has anyone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
yep

What holiday is coming up next?
turkey day

Do you need to say anything to someone?
nope

What made you sad today?
being scared

Ditched school to do something more fun?
no

What are you doing tomorrow?
going home!!!

What are you thinking about?
home

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
meh

Do you have to check in with your parents before you go some place?
nope

What was the last thing you cried about?
being scared

Do you want kids?
not right now!

Are you okay with making a total fool of yourself?
idk

What was the first thing you did this morning?
hit teh snooze button

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
probably my trial team

Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now?
fuckin girl

What upcoming event are you waiting and ready for?
shwayze on the 15th

Have you ever thrown your cell phone in anger?
yes

Do you have any piercings or tattoos?
yes

What do you think your number 1 is doing right now?
sleeping

Do you know anyone who's pregnant?
yea

How do you like your life right now?
pretty good

Who are your last 3 texts from?
sonja, sonja, megan


Are you missing anyone?
no


Are you a lot like your best friend?
yes

Where is the person you gave your heart to for the first time?
south carolina?

Are you waiting for something?
concert on the 15th thanksgiving break...christmas..

What were you doing at ten last nite?
homework

What was the last thing you drank?
sunkist

Who was the last person you kissed?
drew


Did you have a dream last night?
yeah...scary


If you could have something right now, what would it be?
break

Want someone back in your life?
yesssss

Are you good at giving directions?
nope

Ever licked someone's cheek?
yea

What is your favorite thing to eat with peanut butter?
bread

What body part(s) do you wash first in the shower?
hair

Do you prefer hot or cold weather?
neither...i like it inbetween

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
haha...i could...probably will cuz i just have to drop homework off


Have you ever made someone so mad that they broke something?
yea

What is your favorite color?
pink

If you could go back in time, how far back would you go?
i wouldn't


How do you feel when someone kisses you on the forehead?
its cute

do you think your last ex deserves to die?
haha.


Are you dating the last person you kissed on the lips?
yes


Have you ever broken someone's heart?
im sure i have

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
nope

Would you rather go to a party or go out of town?
outa town...not a party person


What did you wake up to this morning?
stupid alarm


What movie did you see last in theaters?
zack and miri

What color hoodie did you wear last?
blue


When did you last go to the beach?
last summer crappy ones


Are you crushing on someone?
just my luber

Do you want to get married?
in a looooong time

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
girl

Do you sleep on your stomach?
sometimes

Who was the last person you gave your number to?
elvira?

Anything been heavy on your heart lately?
nope

Ever been to New York?
no, but id like to go some day

You're trapped in a room for 3 days with the last person you kissed, what do you do?
i could have fun

Which of your friends is the easiest to talk to?
jessica?

When is the last time you were in a photobooth?
long time ago

When was the last time you went clothes shopping?
awhile ago

What's your biggest concern right now?
school nad motivation

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
yesterday??

Have you ever slept in a bed with the same sex?
oh yes


What are you listening to?
nothing


Is your hair up?
no


Ever driven into the ghetto to buy drugs?
nope


Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
he is my best friend now so yes


When was the last time you held someone's hand?
yesterday

What are you doing right now?
being bored

What color is your shirt?
blue

Have you ever kissed anyone who's name started with a J?
yea


Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
drew

What is the next concert/show you're going to?
shwayze

Are you in a good mood?
no

What do you wear more jeans, sweatpants, or slacks?
probalby a tie between sweats and jeans



Who makes you so mad you could puke?
nobody right now


Plans for this weekend?
turkey!

Your favorite fruit?
stawberries if they are good

yet another i stole from k

What is one fact about​ the last perso​n who texte​d you?
she's my momma



Can you use chops​ticks​?​​​
oh and so well. i'm good at it :-)


Last time you were on the phone​?​​​
this morning



Ever been to the Statu​e of Liber​ty?​​​
Not yet


How many email​ addre​sses do you have?​​​
two


Do you like Oreos​?​​​
Yes, in small quantities


Do you send out thank​ you cards​?​​​
not often enough


Can you ice skate​?​​​
Not at all


Do you have a broth​er?​​​
Yep


Do you like to groce​ry shop?​​​
no!


Do you do your own laund​ry?​​​
yes and i hate it


Has someo​ne close​ to you passe​d away this year?​​​
no

Showe​rs or baths​?​​​
Showers


Do you take out the trash​?​​
yes


Do you watch​ "The Hills​"​​​?
No


What did you do Satur​day night​?​​​
went to daniel's house



What are you think​ing about​ right​ now?
accounting homework I should be doing
house
laundry
etc



Weari​ng any brace​lets?​​​
nope.
just a watch



What are you doing​ right​ now?
this

watching house
playing poker badly


Has a boy put their​ arm aroun​d you in the past five days?​​
Yes


What is wrong​ with you right​ now?
I'm too stressed out.



Have you ever felt repla​ced?​​​
Often


Where​ was the last place​ you went shopp​ing?​​​
uhh gamestop?


Have you ever kisse​d someo​ne that start​s with the lette​r G?
no?


When was the last time you were in extre​me pain?​​​
this morning


Are you in a good mood?​​​
kind of. it's almost turkey day



Do you belie​ve what goes aroun​d comes​ aroun​d?​​​
Sure


Who was the last perso​n you went out to eat with?​​​
boyfriend


Do you have any bruis​es?​​​
yup


Last perso​n you went swimm​ing with?​​​
oh i don't have any idea


Have you done anyth​ing you regre​t in 2008?​​​
Nope


What color​ shirt​ are you weari​ng?​​​
blue


Would​ you go back in time if you were given​ the chanc​e?​​​
No


Would​ you live with someo​me witho​ut marry​ing them?​​​
i hadn't planned on it


Are you frien​ds with the last perso​n who pisse​d you off?
no. i'd like to be...but she's being a bitch

Last thing​ that made you laugh​?​​​
house


Ever been to Europ​e?​​​
yes

Where​ do you see yours​elf in a year?​​​
School.



Last thing​ you purch​ased?​​​
boyfriend and i bought his brother's christmas present


If you won the lotte​ry what would​ you do?
pay for college. set up a fund for my siblings college. buy a house. invest

Have you ever dated​ someo​ne longe​r than a year?​​​
yes. and I <3 it.


Do you think​ you'll be in a relat​ionsh​ip 2 month​s from now?
hope so


Did you get any compl​iment​s today​?​​
Yes


Does it matte​r to you if your bf/gf smoke​s?
i don't like it if he does it regularly


What were you doing​ at 9:00 pm last night​?​​​
talking to doug


What is your name if you spell​ it witho​ut the lette​rs "N", "O", and "L"?
Daiee

Do you belie​ve every​one deser​ves a secon​d chanc​e?​​
Hardly ever


Did you cry today​?
No


Do you curre​ntly have a hicke​y?​​​
no hickeys :D


What made you happy​ today​?​​​
boyfriend being nice to me. <3


Do you find it in your heart​ to forgi​ve?​​​
Rarely


Do you curre​ntly have a job?
nope



What's your favor​ite ice cream​?​​​
caramel.


Is your phone​ close​ to you?
upstairs


Is there​ a high chanc​e of you going​ out to the movie​s soon?​​​
yes


If you were given​ $100 would​ you spend​ it, or save it ?
oo tough
right now? it'd probably get spent because i have no money


Are you liste​ning to music​ right​ now?
nope watching house


Would​ you date someo​ne 20 years​ older​ than you?
probably not... but it'd depend on the circumstances

Are you waiti​ng for somet​hing?​​
thanksgiving

What are you weari​ng?
Jeans, sweatshirt


Do peopl​e ever mista​ke you for being​ a diffe​rent race?​​​
No



Have you hugge​d anyon​e in the past 72 hours​?​​​
Yes

I *really* dislike 8am. Seriously. And I really dislike girls. They lie.

No matter what your mom says boys. 3/4 of girls will LIE to you. I've done it. I'm not PROUD of it... but I've DONE it. and not about anything MAJOR. most girls will lie about major things. Some of their stories don't legitimately exist.

I think there's a difference between discrimination and oppression. I would say that women are discriminated against but not oppressed. In the United States anyway. There isn't anything I am prohibited from doing because of my gender; it just may be harder. I have so many opportunities and sexual violence etc I don't see as oppression; I would see it as discrimination.

So, she and I have been friends for nearly a year.

and she expects me to take her side on everything.

i don't.

i stood up for a guy friend of mine because

what she did is BULLSHIT

and she defriends me on facebook.

she thinks moving to ames will solve her drama problems

sorry bitch.

you are the source of drama.

Was the person you last kissed physically attractive?
Well... he needs to shave


What was the last movie you saw?
iron man? i sleep through most of it

What are your initials?
djw


If you just drank 15 beers describe what you would be doing?
hehe i'd be quite "social"

Want something you can't have?
not really


What do you do when you're sad?
whine


Who would you call if you won the lottery?
boy

If you're being extremely quiet what's it mean?
i'm probably mad

Looking forward to anything?
HALLOWEEN


Have you done bad things with your parents nearby?
yes :-)

Do you have a secret that you've never told ANYONE?
yes


Something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?
yes.

Do you think a lot of people think bad things about​ you?
idk

Are you happy right now?
Yes


Want someone back in your life?
i miss her


Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a R?
yes. i hate him too

Relationships or one night stands?
Relationships for sure

Are you someone's best friend?
Yes

How was your night?
Cold


Do you drive with your windows up or down? :
up. always.


Last four texts in your phone are from? :
jenniferz chelsey jenniferz chelsey


How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed? :
a bajillion


If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose? :
Summer


Do you hate being alone?
sometimes


Are you tanned?
a bit


Do you hate the last guy/ girl you had a thing with?
nope


Have you ever been out past curfew?
yes, who hasn;t?

Are you enemies with a former friend?
...

Do you still talk to the person you were dating 8 month s ago?
Yes... we are currently still dating


Where is your ex?
no idea

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of you life, what do you pick?
vodka lemonade.

If you could get rid of anything in this world, what would it be? Why?
violence


Do you think the drinking age should be lowered to 18?:
nope.

What' s your myspace song, and why?
no idea

Whats on the side of the bed that you sleep on?:
a penguin


What is your ring tone?
its set to vibrate

Whats the reason behind your mood today ?
class was cancelled!


Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
let them go

Do you hate people who are obsessed with things like High School Musical?
somedays


Do you love someone that doesn't know you love them?
he knows.


Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
uhhhm??? dave??

Next time you will kiss someone?
in like 20 minutes

Where ' s the last place you went?
school

Last thing you ate?
reeces candy bar


What were you doing at midnight last night ?
working out

Are you excited for anything?
HALLOWEEN


What' s the greatest thing that you did today ?
went to all my classes


Tell me about the shirt you' re wearing:
orange and black


What would you change about your life right now?
I would love to make a million dollars


Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
warm


Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms?
yep


What would happen if you had a baby with the last person you kissed?
Well, we had better be married.



Do you know anyone named Matt?
several

If the person that hurt you the most died today , how would you feel?
I would be sad

Do you remember what your love life was like a year ago?
yep, exciting

Was your last ex a mistake?
yes


What was the last advice you gave someone?
take some sudafed

god i sound like a mom

Where were you at 11: 45 today ?
in finance


Is the person you like older or younger than you?
older


When was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?
10:30 in the am

Ever talked to someone that was high?
yes. i know *way* too many people that smoke

How tall is the person you like? Shorter or taller?
taller

Did you have a dream last night ?
hehehehehehehee yesssssssss

Last text message you sent?
k ill meet you at your place at quarter til


Last comment you left someone?
uhhmm dont know


Last person you were in the car with besides your family?
drew

If it was free and it would work perfectly, would you get plastic surgery?
probably

Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
yep, and meant it


What did you do last night ?
worked out

Who is ONE person you wish you hadn' t dated?
jordan..

What do you hear right now?
asia boy talking about ethics

Last time someone of the same sex hit on you?
oy... one of the first times i was at the bar this year

Does it snow where you live?
yes, stupid snow


Where did you get the pants you' re wearing right now?
penneys??


If you could change one thing right now what would it be?
not sure


Do you wear makeup every day?
no...i should..


What is tomorrow?
thursday. last day of classes PIMP


What are you doing tomorrow?
class studying

Who is the last person to call you baby?
drew

So FAR IN 08….​.





Have you had a gf/​bf?​
yes

Have you had your birthday?​
in may. *le sigh*

Been to church?​
yes



Had someone close to you pass away?​
no.


Pulled an all nighter?​
yes


Drank​ starbucks?​
yes

Gone shopping?​
duh


Gone to the movies?​
yeah


Been to the beach?​
shitty ones at home


Been out of your home state
oh yes


Gone snowboarding/skiing?​
nope





In The Past Month​.​.​.





Kissed someone?​
yes


Slept in a friend's bed
yes


Been in a bar?
i actually *really* don't think so....
damn.


Gotten a car?
no


Gone over your cell phone minutes?​
yes







Lasts​.​.​.





Person to call you?
momma

Last time you took a bubble bath?​
about a month ago. i should do that. curl up with my finance book and a bubble bath..lolz


When was the last time you walked/​ran over a mile?​
probably when i was at the zoo in omaha. =P



Who was the last person you danced with?​
greg. lololololololol


Who did u last yell at?
drew i'm sure


Who last told you they loved​ you?
drew

What are you listening to right​ now?
prof heaston's voice.

What did you do yesterday?​
acct 80 hw..practice.. studying..ate...


Have you ever been in a mosh-​pit?​
yes


Hugs or kisses?​
kisses

i cry myself to sleep at night
but you don't notice
because I put on a happy face
daytime hours are all that matter
right?

i'm so fucking sick of this.

all of it.

i want to leave. and i never want to see most people again.

i haven't felt as unloved as i feel right now for a long time

my parents didn't want me home

my boyfriend doesn't want me here

my girlfriends. fuck if i know what they're doing.

i want to run away

and i want to cry

but i'm so sick of crying

i just want to leave.

forever.

stupid fucking boy

so there's this boy
he asked me out and i rejected him
Nicely
I'm a nice person
I told him I was hanging out with my boyfriend
And I was sorry.
and you know
now we're trying to do the awkward let's be friends thing
but last night
he said to me
(and I can deal with a lot)
"womyn aren't people they are devices created by
THE LORD JESUS CHRIST
that are here for our entertainment"
Can you say asshole
I don't care if he was joking or not
Though he didn't look like he was.
The ONLY reason I didn't punch him in the face
Was because he could outrun me with my broke foot
I mean seriously.
I can laugh at "womyn should be in the kitchen"
an eyeroll goes along with it...but i can laugh at that
but it is NOT a joke to say they're not people

whining

so...
I hafta cook dinner for my boyfriend's family tonight. and really. i just want to go to jennifer's and play with kittens.

i would really rather just go home.

i don't want to go to st louis

i'm scared to

cuz last time i was there

we got in a car accident

on the way to steak and shake.

I can't figure out what to do for a second major

Either finance or mgmnt

they both have positives and they both have negatives

i hate life.

i have to make this decision in like the next 2 weeks.

one: bartak, bartak, my email, whitney

two: Where was your default picture taken? it's a grey goose image

three: What's your middle name? jeanne

four: What's your favorite color? pink and black

five: Does your crush like you back? yes

six: What is your current mood? happy cuzzz the bears won

seven: When is your birthday? may 30, 1988

eight: What color shirt are you wearing? blue

nine: If you were going on a reality tv show, which one would it be? uhhhm the bachelorette

ten: Did you ever sneak into an R-rated movie? no..but i snuck a boyfriend of mine into one

eleven: Ever had a near-death experience? oh yes

twelve: Something you do a lot? study. :-(

thirteen: How old will you be in 12 months: 21

fourteen: Do you want to see somebody right now? nah

fifteen: How many piercings? six

sixteen: How many tattoos? just one

seventeen: When was the last time you cried? a couple days ago

eighteen: Who would you do anything for? lots o close people and family

nineteen: Who is your hero? oh that changes from day to day

twenty: Favorite movie? pretty woman

twenty-one: Favorie song? right now, it's womanizer by britney

twenty-two: What's your biggest fear? being alone

twenty-three: Would you ever take one of your ex's back? oh no!

twenty-four: Favorite TV show? grey's

twenty-five: What are you going to do tonight? studying.
twenty-six: What was the first thing you said this morning? baby..gatorade plz

twenty-seven: Speak any other languages? french

twenty-eight: What's your favorite smell? drews cologne

twenty-nine: What do you sleep in? a blanket

thirty: What are your favorite baby names? girls: jennifer, ashleigh boys: danick and michael

thirty-one: Do you like rain? hate it

thirty-two: What are you thinking about right now? my baby

thirty-three: What did your last text say?not usually

thirty-four: What are you listening to? the game end

thirty-five: What windows are open on your computer right now? a LOT

thirty-six: Who was the last person you yelled at? probably drew

thirty-seven: Who was the last person you kissed? drew

thirty-eight: Who is your celebrity crush? USHER

thirty-nine: Who last made you smile? my baby

forty: Who is the last person you hugged? drew

once upon a time.
there was a boy
and i fell in love with him
the end.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. please love me.

Holy fuck my day today sucks. I'm trying to "trust in the lord" and all, but I just don't see how I can get through the day. I want a pack of cigs because I have so much to do. I have class, then therapy, then working out (and no I can't skip that) and then lunch, and a group meeting, mandatory shopping for trial, and then practice til after 11. AND sometime in between a shitton of accounting and finance homework to do, a bit of IS 101; at least there's no management. At least I can figure it out somehow. Maybe I can get some of it done *during* trial. Even though that's slightly illegal. Fuck. Me. In. The. Ass. I hate my life.

I want my cigarettes to reduce this stress just a little. please. boy wouldn't respond to me saying I wanted them last night. I'm like a dollar short to buy the pack I like- the pink ones. Obviously. lol. <3. I don't smoke often, I just... I can't calm down, and if I can't calm down then I can't do anything and that makes the whole cycle that much worse.

*cries*

I am so fucked for the day. Make me better. Please.

so...sarah, k, and i do the same surveys. wanna make something of it bitch.

Did you get laid last night?
no. it was an emotional night

Favorite kind of beer?
Michelob Golden Light

Ever kissed someone who smokes?
yes.

What are your outlooks on gay/bisexual relationships?
doesn't affect me. i don't have an opinion. let them be happy.

Last text says?
okay see you next weekend

Do you get good grades?
decent

How much longer will you be living at your current residence?
probably a long time

Do you like bananas?
sometimes

Do you own a little black dress?
uhhm not really.

Next concert you are going to?
no idea. k. take me with you.

Your favorite thing to drink on a hot summer day?
uv blue and lemonade.

If you could change one thing about your past, without it changing every other aspect of your life, what would it be?
i have no idea. i don't really regret my past

Are you happy with where you are in life, at this time?
right now. yes.

If you could travel anywhere in the world, without cost being a deciding factor, where would you go?
France and Italy

Are you the type of person who prefers one or two close friends, or lots of acquaintances?
close friends

Are you still friends with anyone you went to school with?
yes

If you and one friend were asked to be on a reality TV show, who would you take with you?
sonja. obviously.

Beer, wine or liquor?
liquor

If you could have a date with any celebrity, who would it be and what would you do?
usher. and what wouldn't we do ;-)

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
no

Do you believe it is possible to be in love with someone you've never actually spent time with?
i don't think so

Do you believe in soul mates?
yeah

If your partner was unable to have sex due to illness or injury, would you stay with them?
yes. i could deal with that.

Worst relationship mistake you wish you could take back?
uhhhm staying with a certain someone too long

Where did you get your last bruise from?
uhhm probably drew.

Who is in your house right now besides you?
drew

Have you ever thought you were gonna die?
yeah

Have your parents seen your MySpace page?
probably

What was the first thing that you thought about this morning?
wow i slept a long time

When was the last time you saw a cop?
an hour ago.

Are you waiting for something?
nope

Who has your heart?
drew

Have your parents ever caught you drinking?
i drink with my parents

Are you an emotional person?
i hate it!!!!

Do you believe in love?
yeah

Who knows your Myspace password?
me. and so does drew.

Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
in the kitchen.
where he belongs ;-)
just kidding.

Do you have trust issues?
yes

Is your best friend a virgin?
uhhhm no

Do you want to know who you're going to marry?
sure why not

Should you be doing something more productive right now?
homework

Are you friends with the last person you kissed?
dating him

juicy campus

WHAT THE FUCK
this site is juvenile and childish and holy shit. Are we in fucking elementary school?

There isn't even anything there about me...about a couple of my friends yes, and it's fucking stupid. Haylee = NOT a whore. Who hasn't made a couple drunken mistakes. AND PLUS if she's THAT drunk.... it's RAPE fucker.

Karissa... = most beautiful person EVER. Leave her the FUCK alone. Or Sarah and I will come beat your ass. I love Karissa. It's not her fault she likes profs. Guess what...most of them are a hell of a lot more respectful than college boys will EVER be.

There's just no sexy ones in the business school.
fuck.

it's just me and ma boyfriend. <3

1: What are your middle names?
mine...jeanne...
his...young han


2:: How long have you been together?
a year and nine months


3:: Do you have any children together?
we have our kitten.

4:: What about pets?
lol her name is ginger



5:: Did you go to the same school?
yes.



6:: Are you from the same hometown?
nope

7:: Do you live in the same town now?
yes...kind of


8:: Who is the smartest?
he says i am.


9:: Who is the most sensitive?
me :s

10:: Where is the first place you went to eat as a couple?
ummm...the tavern?



11:: Do you wear matching clothes?
no. that's weird



12:: Where is the furthest you have traveled as a couple?
chicago




13:: Who has the best group of friends?
ME easily. lol



14:: Who has the craziest ex[es]?
oh that's me too. duuumb



15:: Who has the worst temper?
fuck. me again.



16:: Who does the cooking?
that's me. i <3 cooking


17:: Who's more social?
lately him


18:: Who is the neat freak?
neither

19:: Who is the most affectionate?
both



20:: Who is the most stubborn?
he is

22:: Who wakes up earlier?
i do.



23:: Where was your first date?
uhhhm...olive garden



24:: Who said "I Love You" first?
he did



25:: How did you spend your 1st year anniversary?
uhhhhm.... went to a chinese restaurant?



26:: Who has the bigger family?
he does...well if you count his mom...otherwise their the same




27:: Do you give/get flowers often?
i got flowers *plural* last on valentines day
got *a* flower on our last date. which was sweet.



28:: How do you spend the holidays?
with respective famiilies




29:: Is it love?
very muchly so!!!!

I'm so hungry...so sick of class. I hate Wednesdays. I failed a management assignment, but I think most people probably did today. She's going to look at everyone's and try to add points back... granted i need at least 2 full points to not *fail* the assignment completely.

I detest the smell of smoke. Unless I have a cig too.

I want a motorcycle. badly.

a harley. <3

shitty

Last night my boyfriend and I got into a huge fight. It fucking sucked. He came home around 1:30 and I was already upset with him. We were up fighting til around 3:30. And I had 8am class. I hate my life sometimes. I don’t have time to take a nap today, so I have to drink loads of caffeine to finish my finance, management, and trial stuff. *dumb*
I’m real worried about how today’s going to go … I’m worried that boy and I are going to break up… that would kill me. I love him. But I want him to be happy…and if that’s without me, then so be it.
He tells me I worry too much. . . I stress about too many things. I call too often with problems he thinks I need him to fix. I’m freaked out. I don’t know how to relax. No one ever taught me. Any help on this would be appreciated cuz I don’t wanna lose my boy. :*(
I thought things were going so well … and he comes out with this. I’m scared as hell. But I don’t want to show it, because I don’t want him to think I’m worrying and can’t relax. Even though that’s true.
Fuck. This is a retarded problem. *sighs* I wish that I could fast forward til this was all over. I want to know he’s going to love me forever like he said. That boy means more to me than anything. I want to be his. I should be able to. But I haven’t been the most fabulous girlfriend to him. I’ve taken advantage of how much he cares. I know I call too often. I know I hide from problems at his house, and I know that I make things harder for him.
*cries*
I want to be cuddled and made feel like a princess. I want him to want to be with me. But I don’t want to force it. Ever …
He says that I’m not happy and that’s halfway true. I’m happy with him…but not with life. I don’t know how to be happy with life. I can’t remember how. I can’t remember what happy feels like. Or what I need to do to get happy. Or at least to be happy for more than like 15 minutes. Long term happiness is a totally foreign term to me.

How long have you liked the person you currently like?
A long time. I love him.

When is your birthday?
may 30 88. 8 more months baby.

What do you want right now?
cuddles and to watch baby mama

What's your favorite color?
pink

Have you kissed anyone in the last 48 hours?
oooooo yes

Do you like your first name?
yeah

Where do you want to live?
here. <3

Did you cry today?
no. which is a surprise

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
Sleeping

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
uhhhm at hyvee

What are you listening to?
new music on itunes

What are you currently doing?
deciding what music to dl

Who last sent you a text message?
sonja

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
yeeeeeeeessssssss

Do you miss anybody?
nope

Any plans for tomorrow?
class. working out? homework

What was the reason behind the last time you cried?
yesterday

Is there anyone you want to be with right now?
nope


Are you going to be home alone tonight?
No

Can you fill this out without lying?
Duh

Have you kissed anyone who's name starts with the letter C?
oooo yes

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Ice cream

Where was your default picture taken?
ihhhm rcb

Last time you walked further than a block?
today

Name someone that made you laugh today?
drew and sarah

When was the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
right now

How late did you stay up last night and why?
no idea.


If you could move somewhere else, would you?
Not right now

Which of your friends lives closest to you?
uhhm ron?


Do you believe ex's can be friends?
yes

Do you prefer to call or text?
call

When was the last time you cried really hard?
2 days ago

Where are you at right now?
the house

Who took your profile picture?
uhhm nick?

Was yesterday better than today?
no


Can you live a day without TV?
Yes

Are you mad about anything?
stupid fever

Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
This one is <3.


When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
Last night

Are you a bad influence?
No

Night out or night in?
Depends on my mood. Usually in.


What items could you not go without during the day?
Some sort of music playing device :)

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
No
but i think i have

Last hug?
Today

Do you think it’s weird for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
A bit

How do you feel about your life right now?
I love it!

Do you hate anyone?
hate's a strong word

Anyone upset you lately?
A bit

MY SONJA IS HERE!! I had dinner with her tonight and it was so good. And after a kinda lame dinner last night we went to a kinda lame movie with her and her (all to often on again off again) boyfriend. I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY. I missed that girl. I wish she didn't have to go back to Seattle on Tuesday. :-(

Boyfriend is being soooo sweet to me. Probably cuz I hafta help him pick out his dad's birthday present. LAME. I have no idea what to fuckin get the guy. . .

So I played fairly decently tonight, and because of that I'm happy. I am happy, and hopefully I'll do alright at bowling too. lol. That would make the night fabulous. And by alright... I basically mean breaking 100. Cuz I suck at bowling.

lyke sisterhoodz lyke totally lyke r lyke amazin

"like it's not lyke all my lyke friendz are in the house ya know. it's kinda weird lyke i don't know i guess lyke."

This dumb ass blonde phi...

NOT helping my ideas and beliefs about the greek system in general. lyke omg seriously!

it's no one's fault lyke you know

holy fuck. can she get a fuckin vocabulary.

stupid bitch.

I despise 8am. When I'm in the "real world" I want to get a job with flexible hours so I don't have to *ever* be there at 8am. It shouldn't exist.

I like 10. or even 9:30 BUT 8??? ew.

1. I love...Drew Hillman <3
2. Right now I want...to be done with homework
3. I feel like...I should be studying
4. I hate it when...i feel used
5. I fear...being alone
6. I'm lonely without...people
7. I need...to do my accounting
8. Today I...had a pretty bizarre day!
9. Tomorrow I'm...watching the (recorded) finale of secret life
10. I just...feel like shit
11. I want to meet...jake gyllenhal
12. I'm hungry for...nothing
13. I love it when...I feel appreciated
14. I'm afraid of...grocery store parking lots and the dark
15. I'm listening to...silence
16. I'm wearing...sweats
17. I wish I was in...his arms
18. I'm craving...cuddling
19. I want to get...through this semester without failing. lol
20. I can...get over my anxiety
21. I can't...control my feelings
22. I have...a good boy
23. I haven't...been this stable in a while
24. I'm nervous to...tell my parents i went back to trial
25. My Mom thinks I'm...intelligent
26. My Dad thinks I'm... insane
27. I think...I'm tired
28. I'm happy when...I'm with him
29. I'm sad when...I'm alone
30. I like eating...fruit
31. I hate eating...spinach
32. I love watching...people
33. I love listening to...coldplay
34. I like playing...poker
35. I hate waking up to...a cloudy sky
36. I can see... a computer screen
37. I'm glad that...I don't have a lot left to do
38. I'm disappointed that...I have any left lolz
39. I look like...Kelly Clarkson? That's what the girls I babysat told me..........lol
40. I wish I looked like...Jennifer Lopez

I am so nauseaus, and have been since Friday. It's been a hell week for my period. That's over soon though. So that's wonderful. Hopefully, it goes away with my period.

my boy. oh i love him. *sappy*

"when you look me in the eyes, I catch I glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise when you look me in the eyes"

I don't want to be that girl. The girl that talks incessantly about her boyfriend of two years and how fabulous he is (especially since she knows it isn't "getting" her anywhere cuz he doesn't read her blog)

But I swear, this boy... he cares more for me than he should. I'm not that special but he makes me feel like the world revolves around me. He honestly cares about my opinion and he doesn't yell at me. He doesn't make me feel like shit. I keep waiting for the world to fall apart, for this all to come down, for it to be shot to hell. I keep waiting for him to walk out, and say sorry it was all a joke. I didn't mean to ruin your life. But he's not going to. He's been *mine*, legitimately, for a year and nine months, though he's been one of the boys I've been closest to for damn near two years.

He's been so sweet to me this weekend. (I had implanon put in my arm so that I didn't have to remember to take b/c pills every day.) My arm has hurt like fuck all weekend. Lies. Fucking doesn't hurt. Not usually. I have a pretty damn sweet bruise from it though. But even though he hasn't felt fabulous he's taken better care of me than I ever could have asked for. He has been sweeter and been nicer to me than I could have ever dreamed a boy could be. I didn't think that anyone would love me like he does, and everyday I question if I deserve it. I have trouble remembering how many advil he takes, but he remembers *everything* He's the type of boy who would pick up tampons and midol for me if I needed him to. He pays for my cosmo addiction =D. And he stays awake to cuddle me til I fall asleep, even though he can't sleep holding me.

I can't imagine what my life would be like without him in it. I can't wait to become *his* forever. <3 . And I'm definitely not looking to get married. Somehow, that is exactly what I want right now though.

aliens. fuck you dumbass boy

You can't survive in outer space, so if an "alien" sucked you off this planet and into space, it wouldn't be murder because you can't survive outside your earthly environment? That is not a valid argument, taking the life of another is murder.


ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME

that is so full of "what ifs" and aliens and shit, and HE thinks it's a valid argument. Abortion does NOT equal murder. It just doesn't.

I don't believe it's a legit form of b/c but it's not fucking murder. It can't breathe, it can't eat, it can't do *anything* on its own and you want me to believe that it's murder? If I don't want to have a child that's my prerogative. Not yours. Not any man's. When your body has to go through the changes mine would to have a child, then you can have a say on abortion. Not before. When you have a legitimate reason to have an opinion, you can have one. But, if *she* gets pregnant because *you* were irresponsible, and she can't have a child for one of various reasons, one of which being a lack of being able to support one, it's her CHOICE to not have one.

ALIENS? please.

also,
sorry about my rant about girls just wanting to drink. I know I need to take a bit more responsibility in that dept too. . . I just get discouraged easily and was having a panic attack about it. . .

I'm going to see my therapist Tuesday at 10am though. So, that's a positive. Definitely a positive.

ps. still hate boys.

I am sick of the way poker club is being run. I fucking love playing poker. BUT I'm sick of people thinking they're good and verbally abusing other people (especially the malaysians) because of their "lack" of skill.

poker club is about *learning*
not about abuse.

i fucking hate boys
not men
the childish assholes that we have at drake.
boys.

abortion

One of my dumbass guy friends "you're either prolife or prodeath"

No. Fucker. You're not.

I am not "prodeath" because I would have an abortion right now. I am pro-choice, because I don't deserve to have a child I don't want, and that child doesn't deserve to be brought into a world where it isn't wanted. That's wrong and no child should have to live with the fact that it isn't desired and that mommy doesn't love it.

voting...and girls.

I severely dislike having the responsibility to vote. I don’t want to mess up my first time and vote for a bad candidate. I’m leaning republican though. Which is anti-a lot of what I believe in. But here’s a thought. . . is it not beneficial to have a woman in office- no matter her beliefs- because it will make it easier for a second woman, one that supports our rights, to get in office. It would be easier, even if detrimental, to get a woman with “man’s beliefs” in office, and since the second and third times are easier, elect a woman with feminist beliefs next. It’s flawed logic I know. . . but I’m trying to justify my vote when I would be voting anti-abortion and anti-gay rights. . . but damn I dislike obama/biden.

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I’m also sick of my girl friends being my drinking buddies. I have guys for that. I don’t need to go out and drink to have a good time. Fuck that. Why can’t we just have game nights or movie nights or something else or I don’t even know. Why does there have to be booze involved, because that’s bullshit. I don’t want to drink every time I see you. . . that’s ungodly bad for my waistline and my liver. I don’t want to hate myself because I don’t know if I have friends that will actually be there for me. I don’t know that the girls I spend time with would like me if I didn’t drink. That’s why I miss Sonja. She loved me no matter what. . . and I knew that because we were always together. (I’m kind of having an anxiety attack mid-class and trying to hide it) We did things that involved zero alcohol; we went and worked out, shopped, laughed, talked about boys, etc etc. I miss that. . . more than I should.

song

Have you ever had the type of day that can be *defined* by song. That was my day today. I woke up to 'good morning beautiful' with my boyfriend next to me before he went to class. I fell back asleep and woke up to 'it's a great day to be alive'
Class drug on. All fucking day. 'another brick in the wall' right
After class it was more time with the boyfriend who, every day, i'm ungodly 'amazed' by.

So that was cheesy. but I have had the most wonderful day. Even though I was assigned terrible amounts of homework and have to work in billions of teams for class it was a great day.

*sighs*

Class. Once again. 15 minutes into it. I hate how badly I have ADD in this class.

Again, I have nothing of any importance to say. I miss Karissa. I haven’t seen her in for fucking ever. . . which sucks. I don’t want to do all my homework for tomorrow but I know I need to.

I am so excited for Sims 3 to come out. When it does I’m buying a desktop. I want one anyway…but this way I have an excuse. Lolz

I need to call my therapist after class. Which sucks. I don’t really want to because I wanted to think that I was “better” I wanted to think that I no longer had anxiety issues but the way I’m crying myself to sleep at night, the way that the anxiety attacks are back, the way I look at knives, the way I want to be alone because I always fuck things up says differently.

Sarah Palin. *sigh* oh why McCain?

Trial practice starts on Thursday which is fabulous and I’m super excited for it. I have to leave early though, because of poker club. Lame. Lol. I missed trial so much. I don’t know though. My freshman year jrs and srs have all graduated. . . but. . . that means there is no one left on the team I’ve done anything with; definitely a positive.

Fuck, I’m hungry. My blog, I’ve found is basically a stream of consciousness, sorry if that’s annoying to anyone that reads it.

Jeeeeeez I was worried about being pregnant… but the cramps I have are telling me I’m not. Holy shit. Wish I hadn’t taken my midol out of my bookbag. I suppose it’s a good thing though.

Stole this quiz from Karissa… lol

Are you cheating on someone right now? nope! I’m not a cheater. What are you excited for? maybe going home Saturday. What were you doing eight o'clock this morning? starting class If you took a drug test, would you pass it? yes. Do you fall for people easily? far too much so What's your mood? sore and tired Did you enjoy your weekend? oh god yes Do you regret doing something today? waking up ;-) Who is the last person you told a secret to? justin What's irritating you right now? dry eyes Would you ever forgive someone if they cheated on you? nope Are you going to be home alone tonight? not all night…. Who else is in the room with you? my entire acct 80 class Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? with the boy :) How long can you go without your mobile phone? meh it used to be not long…but I’m kind of growing out of it What are you doing tomorrow? class Ever kissed someone else's boyfriend? yes…that was a bad deal Who was the last person in your room besides family? drew? Could you go out in public looking like you do now? haha am in public Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level? at a reasonable level of loud Who were the last 4 texts messages or im's you received from? facebook, bre, bre, drew Next vacation you're going on? uhhhhm idk Do you like scary movies? not at all!! Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about? depends on my mood Plans for the upcoming weekend? maybe going home How many speeding tickets have you gotten? zero When was the last time you swam? 4 months ago Do you keep your closet organized? not really Have you played on the Wii yet? oh yes How many piercings do you have? six How often do you say the F word? all the fucking time Where will you be 2 hours from now? in bed Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with a S? yes. definitely

I love tanning
I love the smell of tanning lotion
and i love how soft it makes my skin

that's all

Side note...I haven't posted in so long I've forgotten how to

My boyfriend... has been absolutely fabulous.
I spent the weekend with him in chicago at a friend's wedding and he treated me like a queen.
We did fight... but we communicated (see good bf) and worked things out like adults rather than like children. I love that man.

I need my stomach to stop hurting. I'm sick of it hurting for the last *month*

I need to do homework. but fuck that. I really don't want to. Cuz I feel soooo gross.

So she keeps talking and I can’t follow. I can’t pay attention because I’m a terrible person. And powerpoint is not an effective way for me to learn. I should go harass Doug (Drew’s dad) sometime today. I haven’t talked to him for a couple of days.
I want to cuddle with my boyfriend. Yes Sarah, I know I’m lucky etc. Please don’t lecture me on that. I don’t feel well and I want to be in his arms. This is my blog and I’ll be a whiny privileged white girl if I want to . I want to get enough sleep some night. It won’t be tonight because … well… I have to go play poker. I hope some of the girls that signed up come… but not the *bitchy* ones. No one needs them.
“the ledger is transaction data by account” 8 am is too early for this shit. It’s not okay. I hate this class. Why can’t I be in the 9:30 one? Oh well. My weekend starts in approximately35 minutes. Fuuuuuck this is going slowly.
I don’t give a damn about which account things are posted to right now. It doesn’t matter. Not really. Fucking a.
I forgot my Mountain Dew at home. It’s sitting on my counter. Dumb right? That’s what I’m best at. Doing dumb shit. Yet I’m in too apathetic of a mood to care.
I’ve (almost) decided on who I’m voting for. But I could still be persuaded either way. Retarded.
Damn. There’s still28 minutes left. My eyes are so heavy! I want to pay attention. Damnit! Too bad most of this stuff is still review. Maybe I’d try harder then.

class

So, I’m in class and just feel like being … reflective.
My kitten is fine. She just can’t eat her treats anymore. Which is sad, but I don’t think that she ever really liked them. I love that cat.
My boyfriend… that man is fantastic. Lol. It’s probably a good thing he doesn’t read this. He might get an ego problem if he read how often I bragged on him. He took baby to her apt because I was in class. And held me last night while I cried. I’m such a baby…I cry way too often. I started taking my anxiety meds again because of that. Hopefully they start working soon.
I have my first trip to a synagogue coming up on Sunday. Isn’t that exciting? I’m kind of in love with it. In Chicago. I <3>

Jordan's gone
and he didn't call....
but I'm sure he was busy with family stuff

Drew's at his house
taking care of the baby
She's sick. And I don't know if she'll be okay

I have 6 hours of class.
And all I want to do
Is stay in bed

jordan leaves for basic in the morning

i wish i weren't too tired to cry.

I can't concentrate on homework

I'm such a fucking r-tard sometimes

I love sleep

why can't I go there now.

I like being my boyfriend's princess

He is making me so happy

Which is wonderful. <3

I can't wait to see him in like an hour.

hate class

Deserving

So I'm watching fresh prince of belair and it's really made me think

I DESERVE my spot at Drake. I deserve it. I worked DAMN hard to get into Drake and if I work at it, I can fit in *damn* well on campus. I need to not take advantage of the gifts that I have: i.e. I *know* I'm smart. I did *so* well in high school. I need to stop slacking off.

I need to realize that I deserve to be treated with respect. By *all* of my friends. And if they don't get that, they can get the fuck out of my life. I don't give a damn.

I'm still deciding if I like this
this living alone
Right now I'm leaning towards not
I don't like being lonely

I'm tired
and hungover
thank you Justin

I'm so happy my Miss B is back
God I love that girl.
She's one of my favorites
and she looks so sexy right now
:-)

Na na na na na na
Na na na na na
Na na na na na na
Na na na na na

I guess I just lost my husband
I don't know where he went
So I'm gonna drink my money
I'm not gonna pay his rent (nope)
I've got a brand new attitude,
And I'm gonna wear it tonight
I'm gonna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight

Na na na na na
I wanna start a fight
Na na na na na
I wanna start a fight

[Chorus]
So,
So what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gona show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

Unh Check my flow Uohhh

The waiter just took my table
And gave it to Jessica Simps
(Shit! )
I guess I'll go sit with drum boy
At least hell know how to hit
(Oops)
What if this flops on the radio,
Then somebodys gonna die! haha
I'm going to get in trouble,
My ex will start a fight

Na na na na
He's gonna to start a fight
Na na na na
We're all gonna
To get into a fight

[Chorus]
So,
So what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gona show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

You weren't fair
You never were
You want it all but that's not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You weren't there, you let me fall

[Chorus]
So, so what I'm still a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't need you
And guess what
I'm havin more fun
And now that were done
I'm gona show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

No no
No no, I don't want you tonight
You weren't there
I'm gona show you tonight
I'm alright
I'm just fine
And you're a tool so
So what
I am a rock star
I got my rock moves
And I don't want you tonight

Ba da da da pffftt

So this song illustrates the reason I'm in love with Pink.
Her husband leaves her and she writes a badass angry girl song.
AND calls him a tool in it.
Fucking tight.

scared

Gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh boyfriend needs to get out of bed!!! Super frustrating

I'm booooored. and at his house

stupid drake west made me move my car... so it's at his house til sunday.

sometimes I look in your eyes
the reflection terrifies my own
where did youth vanish to
despise growing up
making decisions; please no

I don't want to grow old. I don't really want to get any older than I am today. It scares the *shit* out of me.

Some dumb drunk girl paid me $5 to drive her from Drake West to the Dublin!! Ridiculous huh. Granted I probably wouldn't have done it for 1 or 2. . . I was moving Glenn's car anyway cuz he was impaired and couldn't. God I was a good girl. I haven't been *drunk* yet.

summer survey

LOVE/SEX
(_) stayed single
(_) got your first kiss
(x) kissed someone new
(_) made out for the first time
(x) made out in a car
(x) kissed in the rain
(_) fell in love
(_) fell in love with a fool
(x) your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
(_) had a stalker
(x) had a good relationship with someone

(x) questioned your sexual orientation
(_) came out of the closet (if you're gay)
(_) gotten someone else pregnant
(_) had an abortion
(_) gotten married
(_) had a divorce
(_) had a gay marriage
(x) kissed someone of the same sex
(_) dated someone new
(x) dated someone you'll never forget
(x) done something you've regretted
(_) lost your true love
(_) lost faith in love

WORK
(_) got a promotion
(x) got a pay raise
(_) changed jobs
(_) lost your job
(x) quit your job
(_) dated a co-worker
(_) dated your boss
(_) dated your boss' daughter/son
(_) got fired from your job

OTHER
(x) did something you were proud of
(x) discovered a new talent
(x) proved your self an idiot
(_) were involved in something you'll never forget
(_) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
(x) double-dipped
(_no...but oh god i want to) skinny-dipped
(x) went to a sleepover
(_) went to camp
(_) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
(_) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) flirted shamelessly
(_) visited a foreign country
(x) visted another state
(x) cooked a disasterous meal
(_) lost something important to you
(x) got a gift you adore
(x) realized something new about yourself
(x) went on a diet
(_) tried to gain weight
(x) dyed your hair
(_) came close to losing your life
(_) someone close to you died
(_) went to a wild party
(x) drank alcohol
(x) drank alchohol underage
(_) did (a) drug(s)
(x) got drunk
(_) got arrested
(x) read a great book
(x) saw a great movie
(x) saw a movie so scary that it made you cry
(x) saw your favorite band/artist live
(x) saw someone famous in person
(x) did something you want to tell everyone

I disagree

so. I can't *comment* on S's blog
but I disagree. The drinking age *isn't* a big deal in Europe. It's *16* there. The drinking age being 21 makes alcoholics. It puts a big emphasis on being 21. It places emphasis on drinking and the legalities of it. If it's lowered people are going to be exposed to it younger, and not have as many issues because of alcohol.

The driving laws I have issues with. Why do we let our kids drive so young. 14 year olds are *not* in any sense of the word mature enough to handle a car. 16 year olds should *not* be able to have passengers if we are going to let them drive. *I* was fine. But I also grew up driving snowmobiles, 4-wheelers, go-karts etc. And if we lower the drinking age we need to be harsher on our driving laws.

I'm moved in. And thanks to K it's all documented. I agree on the very meaningful conversation.

I'm going on a date tonight. Thus the too-choppy sentences.

I also am switching birth control to implanon. No more taking a pill every day :-) fantastic right.

[one] are you single? nope.... I usually like my boy. :-) [two] where was your default picture taken? at rcb about a year ago.... [three] what is your middle name? jeanne [four] Do you have a crush? always. [six] what is your current mood? tiiiiired [seven] when was the last time you hurt yourself? i stopped doing that. Exboyfriend made me. [eight] who makes you happy? Karissa. Sarah. Drew. Bre. Sonja. Brooke. [nine] look at a poster in your room, who's on it? usher. I love me some sexy black men [ten] do you know anybody with the same birthday as you? Linda bear. [eleven] If you must be an animal for one day, what would it be? a deer. I'd like to be graceful for once [twelve] have you ever had a near death experience? yessssssssssssss [thirteen] what did you do yesterday? packed to move to drake west. [fourteen] the song stuck in your head? Johnny and June Heidi Newfield [fifteen] what is your desktop background? blue bubbles. LOL i had to look [sixteen] what are you wearing? a red badlands t. and underwear. I'm in bed peoples. [seventeen] when was the last time you cried? this morning [eighteen] have you ever sung in front of a large audience? in chorus oh yeah. and then there was that musical *hates on west side story* [twenty-nine] what's a superpower you wish you had? mind reading. I agree with K [twenty] what's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes. I love unique and beautiful eyes [twenty-one] what do you usually order from Starbucks? I am currently in love with a mocha frappachino [twenty-two] what's your biggest secret? oh. Definitely that I'm in love with Karissa and sleeping with Sarah ;-) my life is a soap opera [twenty-three] who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Drew. for all of 2 minutes [twenty-four] who texted you last? Drew [twenty-five] do you still watch kiddy movies? I *love* kids movies [twenty-six] what are you eating or drinking at the moment? nothing [twenty-seven] what do you think about the person you got this from? she's adorable. and absolutely wonderful [twenty-eight] what's your favorite smell? big fan of drew's cologne aqui de g- something or other. :-) It's an armani one. [twenty-nine] if you could describe your life in one word what would it be? emotional [thirty] when was the last time you had a hug? yesterday?? [thirty-one] favorite ice cream? caramel du leche [thirty-three] what should you be doing? sleeping. cuz i have to get up damn early [thirty-four] Are you in love with anyone? think so [thirty-five] how often do you laugh? not as often as I probably should [thirty-six] what woke you up this morning? my body? [thirty-seven] are you happy with how your life is going? kinda [thirty-eight] where were you born? clarion then life flighted to dsm [thirty-nine] who was the last person to make you cry? sonja

i should really get some sleep

I move ...later today. weird.

Don't get me wrong. I'm excited as fuck about it. And I can't wait to have my *own* place. But with sonja not coming back... it's a bit... it hurts. I'm looking forward to shopping with Sar and K though. I can do that. I like that.

My stupid boyfriend...
is at Ihop with stupid Nate.
and so he can't talk to me
and i *need* to talk to him so i can sleep.
and i have to wake up at 7 so i can finish loading vehicles and get my ass to dsm by 9.

God tomorrow's going to be a long day. Not really looking forward to it. K is going to help me move which will be amazing. I love her. She gets to meet my parents. usually I don't let people do that til they've known me long enough I know they're not going to judge me on my parents. lol.

fuuuuuuuuuck I should go to sleep. Really wish I could

Kid Rock's cd...rock n roll jesus.... absolutely *fab*
I love it. "I fuck hot pussy til it's cold." I *know* this should be offensive to me.... but really... it actually doesn't sound bad. I would do Kid Rock. Any day of the week. He's a sexy old man. Even if he is diseased. That's what condoms are for.

Duffy's cd.... I'd do her too. No that's not what I base my music choices off of.... the people I like just *happen* to be *very* sexy individuals.

So... my best friend from Drake isn't coming back.

She's been there for me *forever* and I love her to death.

I don't want to pack. I don't want to get ready to go. She's not there and so I'm convinced that school's going to suck. (I spent most of my weekends with her and most weekdays at her house.) I hate...detest... being alone.... yet that's how I'm living. Go me.

I hate this. I know I have Sar and K... but ... it's not the same...not yet. She was like a second me. But one that I could like. I can't imagine liking myself. I'm kind of a blunt bitch.

And now who am I going to compare sex stories with? *sniff*

Dreams. God awful and horrifyingly scary

So I had this dream. And it was *awful*

In the beginning I was raped... but my family didn't believe it. I didn't go to the police because... well... I didn't want to deal with it. I wasn't strong enough. I thought it would simply go away. And then I got pregnant. That's why the family didn't believe me. But it was a white guy that raped me... so... obviously... lol

I was pregnant with twins. And since the family knew about it...abortion wasn't an option. Drew's friend Dinah who just got married was going to adopt the babies and that way I could be a part of their life. She was also pregnant...with twins...and adopting mine was supposed to make her get an abortion because if she gave birth it would kill her. She didn't believe that... so she died. So no one could adopt my babies. So I had to keep them. And it *really* bothered my boyfriend. And then I woke up.

How morbid and awful right?

yet another one

a A CORNUCOPIA OF QUESTIONS FOR A RAINY DAY

THE BASICS:
NAME?: Dani
AGE?: 19
BIRTHDAY?: May 30
ASTROLOGICAL SIGN?: gemini
EYE COLOR?: brown...changes with my clothes and mood though
NATURAL HAIR COLOR?: light brown
HAIR LENGTH?: about shoulder
WHERE DO YOU LIVE?: I'm moving to DSM in a week
WHEN DO YOU GET UP?: as late as I possibly can :-)
WHAT IS YOUR FIRST THOUGHT?: can I sleep 10 more minutes. :-)
WHAT DO YOU DO FIRST?: stretch
DO YOU EAT BREAKFAST?: some days. it depends on how I'm feeling
WORK OR SCHOOL?: school.
HOW MANY HOURS DO YOU WORK OR GO TO SCHOOL EACH WEEK?: 15 this semester
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU GET HOME?: study. get a drink.
WHAT TIME DO YOU GO TO BED?: laaaaaaate
SLEEP ALONE?: yes. . .
ANY PETS?: zoey lives at my house and ginger lives at drew's
HERITAGE?: euro-mutt :-)
SIBLINGS?: bre is 16 and brad is 12
YOUNGEST OR ELDEST?: oldeset
SHOE SIZE?: 8
LEFTY OR RIGHTY?: righty... my left hand is *useless*
NICK NAME(S)?: D...Dani..
WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Clarion Iowa
LASTS:
PERSON YOU TOLD YOU LOVED THEM?: Drew
TIME YOU CRIED?: this morning
WERE IN A CAR?: umm about two hours ago on the way home from wc
ATE AT A RESTAURANT?: umm... the state fair was yesterday?
SLEPT SOMEWHERE OTHER THAN YOUR OWN BED?: last week...
WENT CAMPING?: Don't remember... going for a week in SD though... leaving tomorrow
SLEPT IN A HOTEL/MOTEL?: a long time ago
SMOKED A CIGARETTE?: yuck
SAW YOUR PARENTS?: about 2 hours ago
WERE IN A CLASSROOM / SCHOOL?: about a month ago
DOWNLOADED SOMETING?: yesterday
MOVIE YOU WATCHED?: no idea... watch a lot of movies.
WENT TO THE LIBRARY?: last month
WERE SICK?: not long enough ago
ATE A FRESH PICKED FRUIT OR VEGETABLE?: umm last week
PERSON TO CALL YOU?: seela
PERSON TO TEXT YOU?: drew
BOOK YOU READ?: breaking dawn
SONG YOU HEARD?: so i need you is playing
THE FUTURE:
GOING TO COLLEGE?: am in college at Drake
PLANNING A TRIP?: to SD real soon
PLANNING A MOVE?: yeah in about 9 days!
MARRIAGE?: eventually... I'd like to ... I think
TYPE OF WEDDING?: a disney princess one
IN A CHURCH?: probably...I *am* catholic
BEST MAN / MAID-OF-HONOR?: best man is my future husband's choice... my brother just has to be a groomsman... my sister is maid of honor. obviously
WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE?: chicago.
WHAT WILL YOUR JOB BE?: that's a really good question
KIDS?: definitely eventually
HOW MANY?: 2 or 3
THEIR NAMES?: dude. I'm not even pregnant. Don't want to name the litte shits yet!
WHERE WILL YOU RETIRE?: somewhere awesome
DO YOU CONTRIBUTE TO A 401(K)?: nope.
YOUR IDEAL PARTNER:
FIRST THING YOU NOTICE?: eyes.
DRINKER?: socially
SMOKER?: absolutely not.
HAIR COLOR?: I like dark hair.
HAIR LENGTH?: long.
EYES?: beautiful.
WEIGHT?: isn't as important. should take care of self.
HEIGHT?: taller than me
STYLE? : whatever looks good
IS MONEY IMPORTANT?: yes.
TATTOOS?: irrelevant. not too many
WANTS KIDS?: obviously
HAS KIDS?: no.
WHAT QUALITIES DO YOU LOOK FOR?: someone fun that treats me with resepect and can set goals for the future and know how to attain them
FAVORITES:
FAVORITE COLOR?: pink and black
FAVORITE ANIMAL?: penguin
FAVORITE PET?: zoey. and ginger. i can't play favorites
FAVORITE AUTOMOBILE?: corvette z06 or zr7
FAVORITE FLOWER?: lillies. orange ones
FAVORITE MOVIE(S)?: grease.
FAVORITE BOOK(S)?: perfect stranger.
FAVORITE AUTHOR(S)?: nicholas sparks and james patterson
FAVORITE SMELLS OR SCENTS?: drew's cologne. flowers.
FAVORITE MALE NAME(S)?: Michael. Danick.
FAVORITE FEMALE NAME(S)?: Ashleigh. Jennifer. Erin
FAVORITE NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK?: apple juice
FAVORITE FOODS?: pasta. big on pasta.
FAVORITE PICTURE OR ARTIST?: Fill out this survey yourself
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