i want a baby.
and i can't have one.
and so many of my friends from home are having them.
another girl posted ultra sound pictures on facebook today
she's having a little girl.
why are my hormones so ridiculous?
I want to take care of it. I want it to depend on me. I want to be a mommy. . . more than anything.
but i can't. there's just no way I could make it work.

*lays down on the floor and sobs*
I want to know that someone is going to love me. forever.
i thought the girls that thought like this in high school were crazy.
now I'm not so sure...
I'm glad I can't get pregnant right now...or I'd stop trying not to.