I don't even know where to turn. My doctor told me I *have* to lose 30 lbs in the next 6 months. Or I could go blind. That's not a scare tactic threat either; I have stuff wrong with my optic nerve due to my weight. Nothing like telling this to someone with *my* background. I want to revert to my old eating/exercising habits. I want to so badly. It would be hard, but so much easier than doubting if i can do this healthily. Lord, I'm going to need help.