sex on fire. god i miss having good sex. i want to go home. so badly. maybe tomorrow i'll finally have my chance. maybe i'll get to see him again. why does this feel like an addiction. I know i love him. I know i want to be with him. i just don't know that its the right decision i just can't believe that i'm not supposed to be with someone that makes me so happy. i just want to cuddle and makeout and be happy. i just want to see him. i want him. only him. i don't even really see other guys. if it's pointed out to me i can say that they're attractive but attractive isn't what i need. i need security and he gives me that and more. i miss him. i just need to be in his arms. i need to be alive again. without him...i don't feel alive. i don't feel like myself. i'm lost and i don't know what to do. i hate that feeling.