I have cried so much in the last couple days I can't cry anymore. I can't sleep, I'm barely hungry, I just want to cry. But I can't. I can't function. I can't study. I can't do anything. I can just exist. Which blows. But whatever. I'll get over it. I can't stay like this forever. I need a break.

I need to function. I need to be okay with my relationship. I love him. I do love him. That's not a question. It sucks. I can't keep asking him to be there for me. I can't be there for him. I can't because I cant DO anything. I can't take care of myself so how can i take care of anyone else? I can't do it. I can't. I can't be okay knowing that I can't take care of him should he need it.

Also. I've had tonsilitis forEVER. I can't get over it. I can barely swallow right now. My voice sounds like shit and I can't get better. I'm so sick of being sick!!